Wesley

Wesley

Sunday, December 22, 2013

I'm in Korea! and my p-days are Mondays for me (you're Sunday evening)!

So I'm in 화양 (hua yang) area, my church is right next to sejong dehakyo maybe you can google earth it. My companion's name is Elder Luker and he has 2 transfers left on his mission.

We had a Christmas Party and it was really really awesome! :D I barely understood anything but everyone is so talented in our ward.
It's weird, but when they call people up to do anything, first they have to answer some kind of riddle if they're going to be the one picked for the activity or if they get a treat. Everytime anyone is called to do something, they go up and try to answer the riddle and then they either sit down or do Kai Bai Bo (rock paper scissors) or something.
 
 

Some things that might be weird to some Americans:
-We sleep on Mats
-Our floor is heated, that's how we keep the house warm
-The shower is the bathroom. There's just a drain in the middle of the floor and you can take the shower head off and spray yourself off, hang it back up and turn it off. It's just hanging there right next to the toiliet
-It's the law to sort trash from foody trash and just trashy trash. If you put too much crumbs or stuff in the just trashy trash, you could get a fine.
-There's a costco here, so I actually still eat like half american food and half Korean food. But we eat plenty of Kimchi and rice and noodles and pepper paste! I love it, I even tried pigs-feet :P.... okay so I didn't like that
-It's like New York, tons and tons of people (all Koreans haha) just walking fast to the subway or in packs towards a bus or across the street. Sky scrapers and cars.
-The cars can just park and go wherever they can fit, they try to drive on the sidewalk alot. There's really no rules to driving, except watch out for people. It's kinda scary
-Everybody likes to try to speak the english they know to me. I proselyte to every single Korean man I can. We are careful with the Yoja (women) because we don't want to have a flirting image of our church. So any man anywhere, I might start a conversation like, "hello, merry Christmas" and they look a little surprised, grab my arm or something and try to say, "yes yes, merry christmas, wh-e-re are you fuh-rom?" then I start speaking Korean with them and they flip out even more, "you-re Korean is Very-well" they might say. Then I try to testify if they don't run away, and hand them a mormon card with my phone number, (the senior companion keeps the cell phone... we always pray they'll call us and ask to meet again).

My voice this past week has been sorta gone.
So pray that it will get back, cause I really miss my crisp tenor tone. Every morning I wake up and grab my pitch-pipe to see if it's getting any higher and back to normal. I was a bass five days ago, and now I'm back to baritone where I am sounding nearly normal. I wish for my tenor tone back, but to be honest I will miss the full bass sound I've been using. They asked the missionaries at church to sing a carol (musical number) and I got put on bass and I rocked it! :D haha. The lowest I was able to hit one morning was a low c with ledger lines below the bass cleff. It felt awesome, I am going to miss the low sound as I recover. I remember on the plane over, I was whispering to everybody, but the Lord is blessing me and now I can talk with substance, I'm glad he gave it back cause come on! I need to do the work you know.

Ya, even when it's cold, all day everyday we just got to keep smiling and keep saying "Anyanghasayo, merry christmas"

My companion is incredible. He is on top of the schedule, wakes up on time, studies on time... what a guy. He always has faith when he talks to people, it helps that we're both Utah, Americans. Honestly, they'd probably not talk to me if I was Korean... They adore Americans. If I send you a picture of Elder Luker, you ladies better be careful. He's a little taller than me, buff, blonde and skinny. He's kind of got a tiny lisp.... but he can speak everything clear and perfect. He is always positive and he's actually our district leader so when I pass off the first lesson I will do it with him. I'm blessed to be put with him, he gets me to work and makes me feel confident. I just need to have faith in my Korean ability and not let him talk the whole time when we proselyte. Sometimes I have to but in to get my testimony in because he's so good at Korean, I've set a goal with him for us to try to get me to talk more. I try so hard, but it's nice to have him when I don't understand and he can say it quick to me in English.
 

 

Other than him, there is Elder Demordaunt and Elder Waite who are our room-mates. We also have a set of sisters in our ward so our district is 6 missionaries big and we all go to one ward: the huayang ward. If we could get more baptisms and set up another ward, we could spread the missionaries out, but we only have enough for one ward in this huge area.

Oh, so I know Chinese right? And I was pretty surprised to find, but once a day I always run into a chinese person. Without fail, (except yesterday cause of church and we didn't proselyte very much) so every day I find a chinese man in Korea. And I speak to him a little in English and a little in Korean and he's cool and whatever.... but then I find out that he's from China! and I lay on him a quick Chinese line and he seriously flips out, his eyes are so big! :D 
Usually they will always give us their phone number saying that they want to meet us again if I can lay that one chinese line on them. It rocks. Although I think when I tried to meet one of these said Chinese men that I've done this too (I think I've done this like 3 times) but one of them didn't show up when we agreed to meet so that made me a little sad.

We also have officially taught a lesson (potential investigator) to a man named Najam and another man named Doba
Now you're right, they don't sound Korean, because they're not. Funny enough these two men are actually from Pakistan and Japan consecutively. We taught Najam (muslim) in English, and he's super hard because he doesn't really believe in Christ as our savior and won't pray... so we don't know what to do with him. Doba we taught in Korean.... and I understood a lot. It's funny how two foreigners speaking Korean, one from America, one from Japan, actually make Korean sound audible and understandable. I have an easier time hearing my companion's Korean than hearing a native Korean. My companion and Doba just sound clearer to me. Umm... we had a real spiritual lesson with Doba and he said we couldn't meet him again. He knows that we will want to bring him into our church and he says that he knows he won't do that so he would not want to meet with us again. I was really sad, because I really liked him and felt the spirit with him and could understand him! But I guess he wasn't ready for this gospel.... man seriously it bummed me out. I tried my best.... but I just have to get better at Korean and have faith that the Lord will testify strong through me. We'll get the next one.

We've also taught a brother Pak. I don't remember his first two names, Pak Hyung Suk my companion just said to me as I asked him now. He actually brought a friend which was awesome! we didn't expect that. So we taught him and his friend who's Surname is Lee (something something, again don't remember, Korean names are hard they all are so similar to me and all three syllables).
Anyway, we found out that he actually lives in the Daejon boundaries, so we gave him a book of mormon and referred him over there. He was nice, I hope he progresses with the other missionaries down there. :D
So ya, other than the occasional appointment here or there, it's all proselyting. Something we call 전도 (zhun do) - it means proselyte or just go out on the street without a said direction or whatever and just talk to everybody. Everybody. Everybody. "hello, merry Christmas, have you heard of our church" (jesu crisido huki seongdo kyohwey is our church in Korean)
We do that for hours and hours in the cold, thank you mom so much for the thermals... they without a doubt saved my life out here. We hand out cards with our number, sometimes we hand out a book of mormon. We try to get their phone number and we call them the next night and ask if we can meet them. They usually say no and then we just go out and do it again the next day.

That's my mission life. :D

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

December 13, 2013 - My Last MTC P-Day!!!!

Honestly, it's a little weird because they told us the majority of the people leaving the mtc get their ticket for either Monday or Tuesday, but mostly Monday. I'm district leader, and I went to get our notices from the mail, and my whole district is leaving Sunday morning. I swear it was like Christmas that day and I was Santa Claus. "Hey, Buckwalter, are they here yet? Have you checked the mail? where's our travel plans!? Hey Buckwalter!"
and I checked and I checked and finally they came and they said Sunday!!??
We report to the travel office with all our luggage at 2a.m.
We then ride a bus to the Salt Lake airport around 6
I lose my companion as he flies to Denver (haha sucker...)
I go strait to San Fransisco. (so basically half our district for some reason has to go to Denver and then to San Francisco  while I and a few others go strait to San Fransisco and have like 3 hours to chill and maybe get some pass-along-cards out)
After I see my companion again, and the rest of my district, we all get on a flight to Korea. I'll be in Korea like Monday morning I think... Remember time changes

TIME TRAVEL IS POSSIBLE!!!!!   Yes!

Anyway,
My singing last week went great! We have pictures. We all had matching scarves and we sang a capella carols. There was legit Christmas food and staff and it was incredible. Jenny Oaks Baker was also there and accompanied us on a song. She was on the other side of the gym also entertaining. It was way way awesome! We made a lot of people happy and the shrimp was incredible.

Ya that's right, I sang with Jenny Oaks Baker.
anyway. (to some family who care anyway)

Umm, today was our last service project for the mtc. We clean a chapel early early in the morning every Friday. As we clean, there's always this weird old lady who wakes up early to practice on the organ. It's really strange and kind of funny. Every week, we're just cleaning out trash and toilets and she's just sitting in the dim-lit chapel playing quiet hymns. It's kind of awkward and awesome. So today, whether she knew it or not, we got a picture with her playing behind us. :) haha. It's super funny. I'm going to miss that Grandma.

I don't know, just all of us in gloves with our cleaners and this random lady playing hymns behind us.
super awesome! :D

So I love you all. I'm a bit nervous and scared. I just hope that I can use the spirit effectively and do some real work. gah! okay.

yep thank you all! :D
-Elder Buckwalter

December 6, 2013 - Hey Hey!

So, holy cow there is a lot to tell.

I'm district leader now. The Lord knows why, I don't know. But basically I have to get mail and conduct all our meetings and follow up on everybody's goals. If there are problems in our district, I either catch them or have them reported to me and then I send them to the branch president. I have a couple more meetings than I used to, yikes, but It makes me want to be a better example and work harder to be on time and to use all my time and to speak as much Korean as I can. It's more work but it's more blessings.

Tonight I'm singing in a cool caroling group for the staff of the MTC dinner party. I have a pitch-pipe and we're going to be all in matching scarfs (the 9 of us). I'm excited.

My companion and Elder Gehrig are on splits right now going to see the salt-lake temple. All internationals get to go see Salt-Lake. I'm on splits with Elder Flinders, he's on the computer next to me writing his family.

My companion got a Lego Star Wars advent Calendar from his family. Every morning we open a part of the box and build a speeder or a gungan with a spear or something. 

Um, we leave to Korea in 10 days. I feeling a lot of comfort in the language as I prepare to leave. I was working so hard, and now a lot of what I've learned is coming quickly to my head and it makes me happy. I know that the schedule is of God, and that it's time to hit the streets of Korea. If I stayed here, it wouldn't be as productive for my language and testimony as it could be if I just go to Korea. I'm sure I could still learn, but I've capped the rate at which I learn. Now I'm primed for the rate at which I will learn with the natives.

We were going to see M. Russel Ballard, but he got snowed in and couldn't speak to us, but I'm pretty sure we'll get someone Tuesday.

Ya and honestly, just love everyone. There's where I've found the most success. Being a leader and teaching every day is often a struggle. But If you do it with true sincere interest in the welfare of those you serve, it becomes easy and earns true respect. I love my friends and my teachers and every Korean I see. 

December 4 2013 - Surprise visit from Ambassador to the UN from Botswana

We had a surprise visit from his excellency, the Ambassador to the U.N. from Botswana. He just was interested in how we learn our language so fast and visited with us a bit. It was a big deal




"On December 2, His Excellency Charles Ntwaagae, Ambassador to the United Nations for Botswana, visited the MTC.  As part of his tour of the MTC, we took him to your missionary’s classroom so he could see how missionaries learn a second language.  Ambassador Ntwaagae is in the attached photo on the first row, far left.  The gentleman on the far right of the first row is Rusty Butler, Vice-President of Utah Valley University."



Friday, November 29, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving!! ... from the MTC

Thanksgiving in the MTC  Thursday, November 28, 2013

The dinner was really great! We had real potatoes! Pie, some weird yummy broccoli, delicious turkey and I loved their green beans. The only thing I didn't like was their yams.
There's a member of our district who is a little off on the holidays.... don't know why.... but it was weird sitting next to him as he grudgingly ate a bowl of cereal on Thanksgiving day. It was weirder having sister Pratt fast on Thanksgiving, what was up with that?

Ya, my first Thanksgiving away from home or family. It was powerful like unto all the thanksgivings, but not MY thanksgiving. I would've liked to go around the table being thankful, or drawing turkeys on the paper-cover of the table, or going to get a christmas tree, or playing games or watching movies or singing songs. Without those things, it was a bit sad. But the MTC people did the best they could do with us, and it was definitely a fun holiday anyways. 

We did a service project.... We made 350,000 meals for the church's humanitarian program. Their just like rice and oats that you can add water to and heat up... but for those in need of humanitarian food.... I'm sure it's a miracle and we all helped save lives!

We also watched a wonderful movie about the willy handcart company called Ephraim's Rescue. It's kind of like the mormony version of thanksgiving... the pioneers.

But the funniest thing we got to do... and I don't know if you'll be able to find a picture of it from Ellsworth or Smith or Bishop.... but the four of us.... okay... hold on....
So The president's wife held a primary program. Seriously. She had us sing "over the river and through the woods"... we did a lot of childrens songs and childrens games. I swear she must have been a primary leader before she was MTC president because she must have done this program before and we loved it.

We told the story of thanksgiving. She was the narrator, and whenever she mentioned a character in the story, whoever was playing that character had to run up to a microphone and say a phrase.

She gave us pieces of paper before the program started, while we were singing prelude songs, and when the time came, we all walked up to the stage to get dressed in our costumes and learn our lines.

The pilgrim men had those big hats and had honker guns, and whenever Sister nally said, "pilgrim men" in the story, the pilgrim men in their big hats (with buckles) walked up to the microphone and said, "bang bang bang!" as they honked their guns. It sounded like the honkers and dingers on sesame street. 'bang bang bang!" (honk honk honk) it was hilarious.
Their were indian men who said deeply, "big and braaave"
Indian woman who said, "shh shh shh"
Pilgrim woman who said, "mercy mee"
a Pilgrim minister who held up a bible and shouted, "Haaaaalelulia!"

And me, Bishop, Ellsworth and Smith were the turkeys that got hunted and shot by the honker pilgrim men.... Whenever she said "turkeys" in the story... we had to go up to the microphone in our funny glasses with a red balloon hanging off of our necks and a bunch of crazy feathers and go, "gobblegobblegobblegobble" as we flapped our elbows up and down.

... And we died and got eaten.

Oh oh oh oh oh oh!! and the musical numbers today were a bit lax, because it was more of an activity instead of a devotional.... so the musical numbers were not hymns but one of our musical numbers were actually the Joseph and Technicolor dreamcoat medley! So a girl with a great voice went up as a narrator and sang a verse or two from all the scenes in Joseph and summed up a bit of the entire musical. She sang things like, "A pharo's story, go go go joseph, way way back many centuries ago, ect."  and we all singed along going, "ah-ah, any dre-e-eam, any dream, any dre-e-am" it was way fun!!! it made me miss you guys and cry a little bit but I had soooo much fun at the thanksgiving program! :D



Snippets from Elder Buckwalter's Letters

The truth is, all good things come from God. All negative things come from Satan. Our minds are both divine because we are spirit children of our heavenly father. but our minds are also fallen because of the flesh and natural man within us during this probationary state. The only means by which good things happen to us, is by God's grace. Every good thing you have or can think of, is a gift to you from God... and I'm sure there are many you don't even know you have. If we are wanting or needing or required to do any thing, it is only by God that we can do it, he gave us our bodies and he gave us the gift of agency to choose how to use it. He oversees every action and occurrence and there is nothing that happens on this earth save he would allow it. He will not tempt us above that we are able. 

......

I know God has called me on a mission. Knowing that purpose helps me a lot. I often think of home and desire to do some of the things I left behind when I came here. But it's always for an instant at longest that I think of those things. Because right after I think of that, I am reminded of my purpose and why I'm here. I'm reminded that I've been called to people in Korea, and God needs and has asked me to help him bring his children back to him. I think of how important this work is, that I couldn't be doing anything better than the things the Lord has need of me to do.




Anyanghashimnika / 안녕하십니까 November 22, 2013

On Nov 22, 2013, at 11:59 AM, Elder Wesley Buckwalter wrote:


This language is ridiculous, it's on and off... I feel like I got this sometimes and I also feel like it's not even a language, rather my teacher is just making sounds up to freak us out and play with us.

The temple is closing soon, so this'll be my last time at the provo temple, I think I'll be going to Seoul Temple once a month so.... the next time I'm going to be at the temple is in Korea!!!!!

I have to be honest, the mtc is starting to make me ancy. I know I still have a lot to work on, but I kinda want to just hit the streets you know, come on, let me at em'. I think it's like 23 days left.

So, some quick funny stories.

Sister Giles folks are vacationing in Hawaii without her.... and they sent her an authentic pineapple I guess to be funny, but it was actually super super super tasty, the sweetest fruit in the universe oh my gosh!  and it was really funny and messy and awesome!

Ummm. Elder Smith, has finally started understanding the prayers, so just before gym time... the coach guy with the whistle asks for a volunteer to pray and Smith always raises his hand. Umm... probably on purpose he prayed as follows:

Hananim Aboji,  하나님 아버지
Dear Father in Heaven
Um shik er zhu shyo so kamsaderimnida  음식을 주셔서 감사드립니다
We're thankful for this food
Um shik er  /  chuk bok hey zhu shi op so so   /   kamsaderimnida 
음식을  /  축복해 주시옵소서 /  감사드립니다
This food    /   please bless    / thank you   (this is not a complete sentence, but it's what he said)
Jesucerisido eh irumero Kidoderimnida Amen.
예수 그리스도 의 기도드립니다 아멘
In the name of Jesus Christ Amen. 

It's funny because, you can either thank god for things or ask him to bless things.... I'm not good enough to know how to say we're thankful for and please bless _blank_. But he said it.... it was so bad haha. and right before gym time haha.

When we start a hymn, whoever chooses the hymn says, "1 2 3, start!"
Well, Elder Flinders was starting the hymn and said, "hana, dul, set, ka jok! / 하나,들,샛, 가족!"
He was supposed to say Shi jak 시작 which means start but "ka jok 가족"  means family!

1...2...3........Start!  <---  He was supposed to say.
1....2.....3.... Family!  <---  What he said.

hahahaha

Anyway. My companion is really british. He played the oboe for a choir number the other day. He was really good. It was a short notice thing, he just went up and said, "I see that you have an oboe line on the music, Can I play that?" .... so the day of, he played it for a member of the seventy on the tuesday devotional. I was singing in the tenor section... I was supposed to be watching the conductor. Mtc choir is really fun and spiritual, I'm thankful for that.

Um, I love all you guys. I can't think of anything else to say but thanks for your prayers and your support in any form! I love letters, "dear elder". I love emails. I love treats! I'm especially grateful for all the funds supporting me out here.

The church is true, in Korea too, of all things, it's still true there. haha.
God loves you and I hope you see him blessing you, please give yourself to him so he can shape you to your full potential. I've tried my own way and I've tried his way.... and I got to say, his way works better....

See ya next week.

Elder Buckwalter



Sunday, November 17, 2013

An yang ha sayo yoh durl boon

(for those of you who this will be driving you crazy... first one says, "hi ya'll" second says "I'm doing well")

We've learned enough of the rules and vocab to say anything we need to, that is if we can remember absolutely every lesson. I keep my notebook handy and trying to say something goes kinda like this: flip, flip, flip, flip....... "ummmm, chimley bat gesumnika?"

Basically we can get our message across, everything we say is about 50% Korean and 50% english. When it concerns specifics or vocab we don't know except in English, we have to speak Krenglish, but we try our best. It's really coming.

I know that I know more Korean than I give myself credit for, I just have to access it in the databanks of my mind. I have to have the guts to try it out in my language rather than be lazy and just speak English like I have for the past 18 years. It takes focus and hard work and a lot of energy, but I'm doing it

I just don't want to go to Korea and get hit too hard. I don't want to say, "I wish I could have worked harder in the mtc".
I know I can do it, and lately I've been understanding why it's so important and realize how soon I really am going to hit the streets of Han Guk. It's motivating me to work harder and harder and therefore I feel more and more blessings. That in turn, makes me want to work harder and harder.

Blue skies!!! Smilin at me!! :D

It's a good feeling. It used to be tiring work, but now it's fulfilling work.

yesucrisido eh, eerumero kanchungdurimnida Amen.

Friday, November 8, 2013

Weeks go by so fast!

Every day feels long and relatively the same, but every week feels like only days.
I feel like I wrote all of you just 4 days ago.

If you've seen the picture of my teacher/investigator.... he said he would commit to baptism on December 14th if he could know it was true. He's already a member of the church but, it still feels super real and so awesome.

This week has been the hardest working week I've had here yet. I think it's because I understand better what I want to do here and I realize how much ground I still have to run before I'm the missionary I want to be.
I should have been studying those scripture masteries and those key doctrines relating to lessons in PMG. If I just generally knew what each lesson was and a key scripture to use for each, I'd be so ahead right now. Seriously, I need to get those scriptures down!!! and I just wish I had experience in the field cause I'm such a greeny.
 

 
Hey, by the way, thanks you guys for the things you've said to me, the love you've shared with me and the advice you've given to me. I'm grateful for your support with the things I need and the funds and everything! I hope you guys are feeling your blessings from the Lord and I can't wait to tell you about the people in Korea who will be blessed because you guys sent me out here!

You know, the things I've learned the most in here are actually kinda weird. Like the blessings of goals and scheduling. The blessings of a healthy diet and sleep schedule. Just how to be social in general, because a lot of people I'm forced to hang out with, I normally wouldn't hang out with. I'm a lot more social than I ever have been, to types of people who I never would have thought I'd be friends with.
 
 


Honestly, I don't think I'm going to ever be the same again. I've learned how to work so hard. I sometimes wish that I could go watch a movie or take a nap, perhaps play a video game or read a fictional book. Normally, those desires would work in me and I'd probably go turn on Netflix imagining a false truth that I'd actually get back to cleaning my room after just one show. Here not only is that option non-existing, but so is the desire. Doing absolutely nothing but stare at a screen for 2 and a half hours seems like such a huge waste of time! Oh my gosh! I could have learned 50 vocab in 2 and a half hours. I could have memorized a whole lot of Korean phrases on prayer or recognizing the Holy Ghost plus good scriptures to go with those lessons in such time like that. If you gave me 2 more hours to use in my day, you bet I'd use it, holy cow! I only have 2 years out in Korea to find people who could truly use God's help in their life. My mission concerns things of eternal importance, and there is nothing I could spend my time doing right now that would be worth more than serving this mission!
 
-- Elder Buckwalter
 
Oh oh oh oh oh Wait!!.....
Elder L. Tom Perry is coming to speak to the Missionaries here this Tuesday


 

Friday, November 1, 2013

P day again! Hi fam/friends - From Elder Buckwalter MTC Provo, UT


November 1, 2013 11:31:46 AM MDT

The funniest thing that's happened this week involves our teachers. I think I've mentioned before that my teacher (Christensen Hyung Jei Nim) (형제님, Brother -  ie Brother Christensen) teaches us once a day. But we have so much time in the classroom wher we did nothing! We studied way too much last week... it got so boring. We talked to Christensen Hyung Jei Nim about it, he said, don't worry you'll get a second teacher next week and that the time in the evening where we study for three hours strait would be replaced with an evening teacher. So now we have two teachers, one in the afternoon and one after dinner. The second one is named Decker Hyung Jei Nim.

So we walk in the room to meet our new teacher, "Brother Decker" and sitting there in the chair is KIM HAN BIN (김한빈)!!!!! Our investigator. We teach him every day in flat out Korean. We didn't even know if he spoke english! We thought he was some kind of payed actor, and we were making jokes about maybe seeing a ctr ring or that he slipped an english word here or there, but no one ever expected that he'd become our teacher!!!!!!!

So Kim Han Bin is his alias as he pretends to be an investigator. We taught him all that week and now the second week he comes out of the closet as our teacher for Korean in the evenings. He served his mission in Seoul and he is imitating one of the investigators that he taught like 3 years ago. We still teach him, it's just way awkward now, because he is our teacher and our investigator.

Anyway. He says to us our first day of class, "along with me as your new teacher, you all are going to get a second investigator to teach". So along with two teachers we have two investigators starting last week. He pulls up the bio on the screen to introduce our new investigator. And just as surprising as seeing Kim Han Bin in the chair as our teacher, we see on the screen Christensen Hyung Jei Nim! 2 Whamo surprises!!! No one saw it coming. Christensen Hyung Jei Nim, our afternoon teacher, is our second progressing investigator. He pretends to be a man named Ee Dong Sun(이동선), whom he taught on his mission in the past as well.

2 teachers, 2 investigators, 2 people total.
Isss Crazy! :P

On a more spiritual sense... I want to admit that I've been struggling with my Companion. He came late because he had trouble with his Visa and he's been a bit discouraged because he thinks he's behind every body just because he missed like 3 days of class. He really isn't behind, everyone here speaks varying levels of Korean and he isn't the worst.

Well, I'd been praying about a chance where we could finally get on the same page with each other and have some solid love for the other. Our culture's are so different and he's not the touchy feely kinda guy, he's nothing like me, it's really hard. If the companionship doesn't work together and have love, the spirit can't teach. I have to be a team with him and I'll tell you how I learned that the hard way:

We were getting ready for our first lesson with our new investigator, "Ee Dong Sun". 

-Right so we'd never met him, despite his striking resemblance with our teacher Christensen Hyung Jei Nim. 

We decided that we'd stick with just, getting to know you type of stuff. Like How are you, what role has religion played in your life, do you have a copy of the Book of Mormon, have you ever been to church, and we'd simply end with a testimony of the gospel and leave it at that. That was our general plan. No script, just a general plan you know, whatever.

We walked in, and I started talking to him. I was asking him stuff but he just looked confused at me. I remembered how last week, we were very very beginner at Korean so Kim Han Bin had been really really nice and lenient. Ee Dong Sun however wasn't cutting us any breaks, he had been our teacher and he expected some semi-Korean quality to come from our lesson. Nothing I was saying was making any sense. I tried my best to pull at any Korean in my brain, I was drawing at loose straws, I couldn't think of a thing to say! Everything I muddled together sounded awful and made no sense and it just made Christensen, excuse me... Ee Dong Sun Hyung Jei Nim, more confused and it made me more discouraged. I wasn't feeling the spirit, and I was getting frustrated because I knew I had better Korean in me than I was producing at that moment. I gave up, and I just asked if I could close with a prayer. He nodded, and I said a prayer and walked out.

-Pause in the story for a second.  Look through what I wrote in the above paragraph and see if you can notice anything "Elder Bishop" Contributed to the lesson? Can you see one time where Elder Bishop did anything? No. I didn't even look at him the whole lesson through. I didn't involve him at all. The rough-draft plan we made before the lesson, I just threw out the window. I took all his parts that we agreed he would say. He worked hard on his Korean and was ready to say the things we agreed he would say, but I took them first! I didn't give him a chance to teach the investigator. I greedily took it all because I was cocky and thought that only I could speak Korean.

Christensen Hyung Jei Nim, yes as our teacher and not as Ee Dong Sun, opened the door and called us back in. We sat down, and in English he says, "Elder's, that was the worst lesson I've ever experienced. Don't ever teach like that again!"
He talked to me and said, that I needed to humble myself and work as a team with Elder Bishop. He told us to screw the Senior-companionship business and just be equals. He told us to pray together, and plan better and he told us he expected more from us next time. He told us that the next time we would meet with him, he'd give us another start at the first lesson and he'd pretend this lesson never happened. He also said that by trusting the spirit and only by the spirit, would we be able to speak clear Korean. I needed to humble myself and let the spirit teach, instead of teaching by my own knowledge and skill of the language. Elder Bishop needed to trust that giving his best effort to learn the language was enough and he needed to be more confident because the spirit would give him power.

This hurt, because I didn't even realize how I'd been treating Elder Bishop until that moment. I knew he wanted to punch me, but he didn't. I hadn't realized that if I wanted love and unity in our companionship that I actually had to do something. I needed to start being loving and serving and open to my companion.

Anyway. Our second lesson went perfect. Maybe I'll continue the story later. But by planning, and prayer, and equality and charity and faith, can success come.

Honestly, I saw Elder Bishop teach by the spirit. With the tiny amount of language he actually knows... he bore testimony stronger than I ever have, and it only came because I gave him a chance to speak and because the spirit was with us. It's not Korean that we teach in. Korean, English, Swahili... it doesn't matter. God doesn't speak to his children in any of those languages. He speaks to his children by the language of the heart and by the power of the spirit. I am called to speak that language of the spirit, not Korean. If I do my best and work hard and have faith, then I will do fine in Korea because God will pick up that bit I can't do.

There will always be a bit I can't do without him.
I bear testimony of that.
I love you all.

Elder Wesley Buckwalter 장로 



Monday, October 28, 2013

Life Lessons from Wesley

level 1 - Faith.
It's hoping for things which are not seen, which are true.
Faith is a desire to believe. It's putting enough trust in God and opening your heart with enough room to plant a seed that the spirit can work on. (Alma 32)

level 2 - Testimony
A testimony is knowledge, not faith. It's knowing with a sureness that Christ knows you, loves you, suffered for you and can help you through your pains and afflictions and sins. It's knowing that only by Him can you be successful or happy
Testimony is a level-up from faith. The seed of faith has begun to grow and the experiment has proven good because the roots burn in your bosom. The roots manifest goodness to your soul.
(Alma 32)

level 3 - Conversion
Now for conversion. The only way good fruit will spring from your new tree is if you live the principles you know are true and be baptized and renew your covenants continually through sacrament. You must be baptized and given the gift of the Holy Ghost, and you must have faith and repentance continually with ENDURANCE TO THE END.
Bednar promises that you cannot fall away if you are truly converted through these principles and through charity.
(2Ne 31)

These are the three-levels of becoming a saint in the eyes of our Lord. (2ne 31:21) Nephi says, "there is none other way... whereby man can be saved in the kingdom of God".

Think of my talk... study those two chapters and pray about it.... and then ponder as to why we need missionaries.

It's flippin awesome!!!!!

anyway. Love you all

-Elder Buckwalter

Mass Email Imnida!! - Oct. 25th.

It's funny because my first p-day I was like... I'm so sad, everybody has letters but me, woe is me!
Then after that email last week, everybody emailed me and I have more people writing me then all the other Elders in my district. You're letters are awesome. It makes me feel like I'm still here in Utah even if it is like some sort of Celestial property... I'm still an American and I'm still in my hometown Utah!!! I have to remind myself that haha.

You eat, you study, you speak Korean, you study, you participate in some member of the seventy's devotional, you study, you go to meetings, you study, and then you go to bed and get like 7 and a half hours of sleep and start over again... you walk and walk and walk and walk and study and study and study and study. I'm exhausted all the time and I have to remind myself that I'm on the Lord's errand so I can't afford to be exhausted, I need to continue to smile and show the light of Christ in my countenance and GET THE WORK DONE!

despite how I feel and who I want to be here.... I really am still imperfect wesley who needs to work on a lot of things. I need more diligence and reverence and focus and I pray for me to establish these christ-like attributes because i don't feel comfortable making this mission about me.
Before... my life was Wesley-centered.... and now, Being selfish.... is like not rewarding at all... it sucks. Being on a mission only makes you feel good if you serve and if you turn outward like Christ did and have charity. Everytime I make something about me.... it isn't fulfilling. I'm trying to need less and less and give more and more. It's hard for me. But that's all I do all day long every day. I still have 8 more weeks to get really really good at it. Hopefully I end up like someone a person would trust and listen to and love. 

Our district goal this week is reverence. It's our "Christ-like attribute" for last week.
All of you imagine me for a bit. I'm energetic, I love to sing and beat-box. I love to talk a lot. I am usually happy about a lot of things, ect.
Now imagine if all of 12 people in a district were exactly the same way. We got like 4 beat-boxers here. Everyone sings! We all talk so much (hence the goal for reverence). You can see why we were all called to seoul Korea. God wants that similar flavor for those people I guess.

There is little time for me to write, and i can only email on p-days.... every letter and package reminds me that I'm still a Utahn with people who know me as me and not as "Elder Buckwalter"
.... wait what? you're name is Wesley???.....
ya. Thanks for all the things that remind me of who I am. I love you guys.



Friday, October 18, 2013

First Letter from the MTC. P-Day is Friday!

Subject: What!? you guys haven't written me yet?
Date: October 18, 2013 11:49:08 AM MDT

So I came in the first day and I didn't have a companion!~
I've been in a three-some since Wednesday and supposedly "Elder Bishop" from England is coming today, but I haven't met him yet.
When I arrived my teacher would avoid English at all costs. His name is Christensen Hyung jei neim (Brother 형제님). He's been off his mission 10 months and is teaching us heavily so as to prepare us for a practice investigator tomorrow. I admit that I am ahead of everyone else in Korean, yet I've seen everyone participate in the gift of tongues and focus heavily on the language. I know that those Elders and Sisters in my district were called of the Lord and are prepared with the gifts they will need to be successful as missionaries in Korea. They are all remarkable and are armed with firm testimonies. 

One of the Elder's in my district is a red-head who beat-boxes just as good as me. We basically hang out with our district all the time: lunch, class, district meetings, fake investigator practice, ect.

I've absorbed an intense amount of information in these my first 3 days. Mostly I've learned that despite all that is expected of us and among all the things we have to do, the most important thing to have on your mind is your purpose which is to invite others to come unto Christ. We're not learning Korean to know the language, we are learning Korean so that we can be better tools in the Lord's hands for engaging in his work. If the foremost thing in my mind is to keep the Holy Ghost as my companion and guide, super hard things are then possible. 

I'm grateful for the spirit here in the MTC. I've never felt anything safer, more worthy, or more focused then this environment at the  MTC. There is no time for sin or distractions. Everywhere we go is planned out and everything we do we do in the name of Christ. You can feel the Holy Ghost as if it were a silent member of your party, just walking with you and brushing you and your companions shoulders constantly. My heart is always warm. The only problems we think of are, how to prioritize our time, or how to make it better fir the investigator, things like that.

I recommend figuring out how Dear Elder, the website, works.
http://www.dearelder.com/

Most of the Elder's in my residence hall use that. If you write through that website, I'll get the letter in the mail the same day you submit it to their site. Mail-day is every day... and hearing my district leader say, "Mail's here Elders!" doesn't follow with that skipping heart reaction from me as it does all the other Elder's. I feel a little down that I won't be able to hear from you until on Fridays / P-days by checking this mail as I am doing now.

I love you guys, and I'm working hard. The spirit is strong and I have so much to do to prepare... everyday is full.  Thanks for your prayers.

Elder Buckwalter




Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Elder Buckwalter Enters the MTC today.




The Official start of Elder Buckwalter's Mission begins here!   October 16, 2013











MTC in Provo, UT


Now it's "Speak Your Language"!  

한국어









     한국말 합시다! 

 Let's Speak Korean!



Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Wesley at the Logan Temple before entering the MTC.

Last weekend Wesley entered the temple for the first time.  He chose the Logan Temple and it was a very wonderful experience for Wesley and his family.  





Elder Wesley Buckwalter is ready to start his mission.


Tuesday, October 1, 2013

First Post

This is Elder Wesley Buckwalter's blog. It will be run and maintained by his sister and father from emails and photos and such. Just in case you want to follow.

PS. Trust me, eventually it will look so much cooler.